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Hi, My Name is Cyndi

 A little bit about me...
Hang on, grab a chair, this was longer than I thought...

I met my husband in high school. However, we were not high school sweethearts ( he asked me to prom and I said no...) he was a long haired, football playing, motorcycle/Camaro driving punk. And I was an innocent little sophomore who knew her mom would never approve. Fast forward a few years, and while at church, from across the way I see this clean-cut glowing return missionary, and from that moment I knew he was the one. And so we didn't waste any time, really. we went on our first date in July and we were married September 5th 1998 only two months!

We both knew immediately that we wanted a family, so it began. and we were told that it could take 6 months to a year.. you know the drill. A year went by, and nothing. So I really pulled out the big guns, and started temping, and timing and charting, hoping, praying, wishing.... nothing. and come to find out I was never even ovulating! My Dr. prescribed Clomid and we thought, this is it! this is going to work and we are going to have twins! hmmm...not so much. we were so limited on funds and we were starving students living in Hawaii that we just continued to do the clomid, for 2 whole years! (I don't think it is meant to be used that way?) So my Dr. finally said that I could only do 1 more month of clomid then we would have to try another avenue. And guess what! BFP! we were shocked!  I had a good pregnancy till 36 weeks when I developed pre-eclampsia and had to be induced. And after 18 hours of labor and 3 hours of pushing! we welcomed our first son Milo, in July 2002.

After the birth of our son, everyone said "oh! now you will get pregnant right away, your body just had to get pregnant once" Really? really? so we went right back into trying for #2. We tried the clomid again for another 3 years (off and on) Then I was finally diagnosed with PCOS, I was given metformin and told that I would probably get pregnant once I take that for about 6 months and get my PCOS under control.. nope. I went through the homeopathic route, and tried every herb and concoction that everyone swore worked for a Friend of a friend... nothing. By this point our son was turning 5 and I was beginning to lose hope. We had even put our adoption papers in, we wanted to keep all options out on the table. We finally took the plunge and went to a RE and did IUI #'s 1,2,3 and 4 only to find out each time that I never ovulated even with the meds.? So we were told that our only option at that point was IVF. So we saved our precious pennies, and went for it! They retrieved 46 eggs! and 28 of those fertilized! I had a case of OHSS which held off the transfer to day 5 instead of day 2 or 3. By that point of the 28 embryos only 6 survived to blastocysts, so we transferred 2... and 2 weeks later BFP! there was a good beginning of pregnancy, then I had to be put on bedrest at 30 weeks due to pregnancy induced hypertension, and ultimately was induced at 35 weeks due to the hypertension, and gave birth to beautiful baby boy August in January of 2008.

Once again came the responses " I bet NOW, your body will get pregnant, because  I know someone who knew someone Else's sisters, cousin who got pregnant on their own after they did IVF" ya, ok. We were smart enough to know not to waste our time with clomid this time, and we had 4 embryos left from the last retrieval and we wanted more kids so just 11 months after our last baby was born we did another transfer with 2 of the remaining embryos, I thought for sure it would work, and since it worked the first time around it HAD to work this time, BFN. I was crushed, but I knew we had 2 more frozen embryos left, so the very next month later we did it again with our last remaining embryos... BFN! what!? I was shocked. Hurt, confused, hopeless. I didn't know what we were suppose to do, how could we afford another 20 grand on IVF again? We decided we needed a little break. Time to enjoy the kids we had. So the next year around the same time, we were able to get some money together and found a new less expensive RE, and went for it again! This time I had some OHSS but not as severe as last, and my RE was adamant that day 2 transfers are the secret to successful transfers, who am I do question what he does best? so we all agreed that with my history we would transfer 3 embryos. It was one of the worst 2WW I had ever had, I had convinced myself everyday that it did not work, I was a mess, just ask my husband he will agree! but luckily, I was wrong! BFP and not only was I pregnant, but it was TWINS! most of that journey is documented here in this blog, but in a nutshell I was put on bedrest at 30 weeks due to preterm labor, and had a emergency c-section at 34 weeks. We welcomed our little twins Oscar and Lola in July 2010. They spent 6 weeks in the nicu, and are getting bigger and more work everyday!

Here we are 12 years into this crazy thing called marriage. Just trying to figure out how to raise our kids right, and still remain best Friends while doing so.

So join me here in my daily grind of life with me, my husband an 8 year old, the craziest 3 year old in the world and 7 month old twins!

I am not the best updater, But I try.